Vertigo

Man, has it ever been a long time since I've posted on this blog. What has it been, like six months? Woot!

Anyway, the main reason I popped over here was because I am feeling a little introspective again. I won't get into the specifics but the wife and I have been tug-tug-tugging at each others last nerves lately and we sat down to chat tonight. Well, it started with yelling then worked its way down to chatting, but it was a good experience overall. She actually managed to illuminate a problem that I hadn't even considered, which happened to be coming from my end. She felt like some of my behaviour was of a punishing nature and resented it, which makes sense looking back on how we've been dealing with each other for years, not that any of it was conscious or intentional. I can't remember a single argument that we've had where I deliberately did something just for the sake of making her feel bad, or shutting down something she wanted because I could. I always argued from a position of 'this is important to me' and dug my heels in when I had to. She can be so stubborn and uncooperative, though, I could maybe see something like that seeping out on an unconscious level.

It was an enlightening moment for me and totally diffused the situation which had exhausted the both of us. There will be some thinking and discussion on this in the future, I'm sure.

She later asked me to pull out my Tarot deck, which surprised me. I have this beautiful deck based on the Vertigo universe of characters from DC Comics with artwork by the inimitable Dave McKean and she's always loved them. We dust them off and bring them out from time to time and do a reading or two. It's kind of fun trying out different things with them, especially when you change things up but still get a similar reading from different cards, or the same cards pop up in different spreads. The Vertigo deck is also fun because there is a connection based on the characters we know and the stories we have read, not just the basic divinitory meanings in the guide book (which is also a beautiful thing to behold, by the way).

Kind of an interesting night. All that McKean artwork has me digging out my old Cages comics and I have a hankering for my usual mood materials like JM DeMatteis and/or Jon J Muth works. I've also dug out a finished short film script that was sitting on the Tarot deck in the closet. Serendipity? Maybe. If the moodiness continues beyond tonight, you can rest assured I'll be back to here to pontificate.

Later!